Tomorrow I will do something I have not done in 11 years.
I will work on September 11th.
For the last 11 years, I have found a way to have the day
off. From sick days to vacation to
manipulating my work schedule to ensure I will not be working. It was to remind me of what we had taken from
us and to stay angry about it.
Every day at 5:40 AM on that day I would get up regardless
of what I had worked the night before. I
would put the video I had recorded that day at first and moved to the film
United 93 when the tape became warped in and watch it. I would sit there reliving it, fuming,
crying, wishing the outcome would be different. When it was done I would try to
have as good of day as possible, to show that I am not defeated. It was a noble thought.
But I can do better.
It is time to reclaim the day, that I am better than those
that seek to destroy our nation out of fear and hatred. It may seem bizarre to some that to do this I
will be working. But I see that the way
to truly win is to show them they failed.
That even working is a joy to do in this country. That they may have my contempt and pity, but
they won't win by making me alter myself for them. It is a small thing, I will admit. But to me it is a small thing that speaks
loudly. I will do this.
I will regain what was lost.
