No Collateral Damage

I find myself in a strange position.



I had hinted to others that there were reasons I taken a hiatus on writing my blog. That I had to for fear of revealing too much. That I would tell all after the statute of limitations had passed. And now that they are, I find that I cannot do it.

It’s not that I had a change of heart exposing what had been done to me. No, I will never forget OR forgive what was done to me by the person in question. They did one of the cruelest, most offensive things that can be done to me, and there is no going back from what they did. I seethe every time I think of it. And more than anything I want to expose this to the world. But I can’t, because it would cause grief to another.

At first I didn’t care who got caught in this. I was ready and willing to potentially lose decades-long friendships in my pursuit of the truth. Damn the consequences, I wanted justice for what had been done.

So I had written out my post about this and was going to publish it for all to see. But first, I told a few select what had been done. While they agreed in general with my stand, they all brought up a valid point. The third party did something in all of this that I hadn’t realized what they had truly done. In this entire fiasco, the third party had a choice to make that would affect everything. And despite knowing what it could do, they did the right thing. Even though it would have been easier to do the other choice, they picked for truth.

And I can’t punish them for doing the right thing, no matter how painful it was to me.

So in the end I erased the original post, let my thoughts cool a little, and decided to go this route instead. There are those of you who might know what happened and to you I just ask to keep it to yourself. There are those of you confused as to what happened and what could possibly have been so terrible to me. I might let you know one day. But for now, I must keep this close to the vest. I hope you understand.

So now I will attempt to pick up the pieces and try to resume my writings. I do find them therapeutic in a way, helping me to communicate my thoughts that swirl around my head. I hope I can fully resume, with this helping exorcise the demons plaguing me as of late. Maybe this will do the trick. I will find out as I write. Or as I like to say:

“We shall see what there is to see.”